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The Lord Never Disappoints

atienootieno — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:57:17 +0000

When I was young (primary school I think), I said two things in my life… one was I will never ever drink beer or any other form of alchohol… so far… thats a check. It seems I was very wise because at that age I also told myself that I will not get married until I am at least 30. What I didnt factor in was all the human influence that would try and make the two resolves impossible.

The first… non-drinking, I have had friends who have tried to convince me how a little drink is good but I just cant stand it one because my salvation does allow it and two because I have seen alchohol destroy my extended family and Its just a no-no zone.

Now for my marriage at 30, for the past two years, I have had friends and enemies alike ask me one question that I have come to dislike ‘Na wewe yako ni lini?’ esepcially after attending someone’s wedding. They concluded a long time ago that I was ready and fit for marriage… I do not know by whose standards.

the beginning of this year started with a bang… I had two highly charged relationships but like the saying goes ‘you have got to kiss many frogs to get to your prince,’ they were both wrong. Now I had this long lull after the two relationships ( by lull I mean like 3 months of virtually no one looking my way’. I would have not cared so much had the people who had concluded that I was ready shut up. With more of my friends getting married, the concern in these people’s eyes grew and unfortunately so did my stress levels.

As a christian, the best thing was to go to the Lord and I did pray about it … very interesting… instead of believeing in a God who doesnt disappoint, I was more like… God ‘Why?’ I am doomed to be alone? Whats worse? I was approaching the big 3-0. For an unmarried gal, this is a big O-O!

So my 30th birthday came and passed (I am still alive) phew! and well everyone around me seemed to be hooked up! people who are younger than me (both men and women) For those who are non-Africans the men and women issue really matters. I started to actually think about how my single life would be in future and seriously thinking about my baby adoption options he he he!

I went home for a celebration with my family… dinner and then cake afterwards. As I was looking at my facebook, I bumped into an old friend who had haboured some feelings for me… at least he opened up and said that. Needless to say I was surprised! Now after that some secretd admirer called me. there are also some people who how they have been behaving lately… I dont know.

The moral of the story is: I forgot about the statements I made while I was young but God didnt. He knows what is right for you… he NEVRE DISAPPOINTS! Just hold on and believe that He does. Its worth it. I dont know if this guy or any of the other guys is the right one but one thing I know is that the one is coming soon at this time whihc is right. Dont be pushed to make wrong decisions… WAIT ON GOD.

What Next for me?

atienootieno — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 06:00:09 +0000

So… 5th December was my birthday. I am turning… well… OLD! Unlike my other birthdays, this time I really didnt get time to reminisence and think about my life because I was out of town with some friends. I still I am going to have my quiet time soon though… I need it.

My life is at the point where I keep on asking myself… what is next for me? There are all these things that are happening in my life and all these other things that are not happening and I am caught up in the middle… At this point of my life its like I am blindly walking around. As it is said in swahili ‘sina mwelekeo’

Of all the things in my life that I dislike, this is probably one of the worst things to happen to me. I like it when my life is heading somewhere… when I am impacting someone’s life in one way or another, when I am changing something and now that my life is depcting none of those… I feel lost and I need some guidance. My God needs to speak to me.

I need that time to search my heart and I will do that soon.

Stand Up for Christ and be Counted

atienootieno — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 10:03:54 +0000

For all those who love Jesus Christ our one and only saviour! It is important to stand up and be counted! In an era when it is cooler to do BAD things than GOOD… we have to live up as Christians!

I realize it is time when many Christians are quiet about their faith. They are saved yes but quietly so. They laugh and tolerate talks and jokes that are unGodly but say nothing about while inside them they have this burning desire to say STOP! ACCORDING TO MY FAITH THAT IS WRONG.

Lets all do it! stand up for christ today! say NO to the wrong thing and YES to the right thing as christians. STAND UP FOR CHRIST AND HE SHALL STAND UP FOR YOU!

He is just not that into you

atienootieno — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 07:37:02 +0000

Ok… this happens to everyone but the earlier you know it the better. I recently watched this interesting movie and I must say well was a ‘reconfirmation of what I already knew’ and my friend Mark says.

I never really understood how I can like someone and they wouldnt like me back… sort of like wasted feelings. Funny… the Bible teaches you everything you need to know. remember the story of Jacob, Leah and Rachel? He was just not that into Leah but did she learn anything NO! she proceeded into a loveless life.

Well today I have just realized something… this guy that I like is not just that into me…. OUCH! but true. I have tried everything… to be nice… read signals better lakini wapi! if he doesnt feel you there is nothing you can do to make him feel you. If you do work hard enough and he has a relationship with you as many girls nowadays do… let me assure you it will not be a happy one.

So my next step…. relax and stop trying too hard… I am sure that there is someone out there who will just die to love me for me and will be smitten with me. For now I live my life like he doesnt exist! TOUGH!

Pleasing Everyone Never Works… true

atienootieno — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 13:00:02 +0000

Have you heard the song: ‘Wacha waseme… Usiku Watalala’ by Chizi. Very interesting song which has made me realize for the umpteenth (right spelling?)time that pleasing people is just futile.

Today, I spent most of my morning doing work for someone who instead of following rules dumped something on my lap with that killer smile and weak me I accepted. But after spending hours on that job alone when I could have been doing others… I said NO! NO! NO! time to stop gal.

Back to Chizi’s song… it doesnt matter how nice or great you are… someone will always find something negative to say about you. he is too fat, she is too slim, he does this work poorly, his work is too great… he just wants to show off.

so the lesson for the day: live for you and not for anyone else. Its YOUR life not THEIR life

My blog

atienootieno — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 07:21:54 +0000

I have always wanted to have a journal where I can write things that I will have in future to show my children and friends about things that I learnt and went through at this point of my life. It is therefore interesting to finally begin this blog.

This blog will chronicle my experiences… at work, as a Christian, in relationships (all types), my dreams and what I am doing to achieve them as well as my fears.

One thing already is that for other journals I have had, I havent been able to keep up with so I hope I will do justice to this by updating it daily.

It is a happy day today and I am all smiles… I am trying to keep it that way… My motto is ‘turn any sadness into a smile’ so hey if you meet me smile I am actually living up to my motto.

So today, despite all the negatives happening in life ‘turn it into a smile’. It does not hurt to think about the positive things in life than looking at the glass half empty.

Have a great day!

Hello world!

atienootieno — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 07:12:34 +0000

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